I admit, I'm an emotional mess.
And I think it's completely Chloe's fault.
I'm not kidding either. It's crazy. It comes out in so many different ways.
My feelings get hurt very easily. Like, I know at the time that if I just give it some time, it won't bother me any more, but still it doesn't change anything. Does that make sense? Anyway, I'll cut Chloe some slack there, I can't blame it all on her...maybe it's partly due to being a girl.
But that's not the bad part.
I used to be able to watch all kinds of movies. I was a big fan of scary movies. I mean, I watched Saw I, II, AND III. No problem. Not so much anymore. Only happy endings now. I only want to see things that end nicely. I was so excited to see Changeling. And then I finally saw it. And it was awful! I'm sure that Pre-Chloe, I might have thought differently, but I seriously sat through the whole movie trying to convince myself that there would be a happy ending. I waited. And waited. And waited. There wasn't. I didn't like it.
Here's the worst part. I'll be watching my regular shows. (Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, House, etc) And the if a part comes on that's even remotely sad, out of nowhere I'll be in tears! A character has cancer. I've known this through several episodes. But still, EVERYTIME, when they talk about it, I end up in tears. And I'll be in tears the whole night! I could seriously drown in my tears! It doesn't matter if there ends up being a happy ending, the sad part gets me EVERYTIME. Which is bad since most movies/TV shows go through a sad part before the happy ending. (I'm glad I'm watching these on my own!)
Anyway, none of this happened pre Chloe. So my only conclusion is that motherhood makes you an emotional mess. I'm just sayin'.
Ok...that's my vent. I'll leave you with some pictures:
How big is this girl looking!?!?!
5 comments:
Yeah, I know exactly what you mean!!! I never used to cry like I do now. My kids make fun of me because I cry over Hallmark commercials. And if we're watching something together that is sad, they'll call out to each other: "Is Mom crying???" Brats. LOL
Oh no, not just a chick thing- sorry to admit in many ways I feel the same way. I work with St. Jude’s Children’s Hospital. In the past I could deal with the sad stories. Now it’s very difficult to not be completely a mess. Do I have to give up one of my Man Cards now?
You guys all just REALLY realize what you only THOUGHT you knew before. How quickly we can all be taken away from the ones we love and how very precious our time is. Until you have someone who COMPLETELY depends on you can you really know this.
I know exactly what you mean- sometimes I just look at Aiden and get teary!
Chloe is getting so big!
I totally understand what your'e saying. Being a parent sometimes makes me almost too afraid of "life". If I hear a bad story on the news that relate to children, I don't even want to let my children out in the front yard! I saw the Changeling movie as well and couldn't stop thinking about my son the entire time! Parenthood is the toughest job we'll ever have!
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